Monday, October 20, 2008

Oct. 20, 2008
Cereal, bread, burritoes, I feel like I am cheating. I used to thing Weight watchers was so strict. I did my low carb diet which was really strict and now w. w. seems like I am cheating. It is fantastic. I had a cheat free weekend which I never do. I was able to go to Chuck e cheese for a b-day party and have a big salad, yesterday I had taco bell and we all know I have issues with that place. The best part is the scale has gone down. Yeah! I got to open my 35 gift this morning. I got a $15 g.c. to Starbuck, another one of my favorites. Thanks Ali. 10 more to go and I will get that christmas wrapped gift off of my kitchen counter:)
I had a super productive weekend. I got a big art history paper done before it was due, wrote my resume for another class, did a research paper for yet another class, and made pomegranite jelly for my father in law. It was easy and I feel so on top of things, well at least for today.
On the other hand I had a tough mental weekend. My Dad was rushed to the hospital on Fri. night. He has issues with getting dehydrated even if he drinks a ton of water, and also with his blood pressure. As many of you know I have issues with my Dad and stuff that happened in the past. I am not sure how I should feel about him and our relationship. I wan't to forgive and forget but he left my family with nothing when we were very young. My Mom got screwed by him for many years and worked her butt off to care for us when he wouldn't even send child support. I feel like I should care about how he is doing but I really just don't care anymore. I know sad. I have given up on resolving anything with him and I am ok with that until things like this happen. So mentally I have been in a blah place all weeknd. I haven't even called for updates. I know I need to work on resolving the issue but my way of fixing it is eating and for once I am not going to let him win. Ok sorry about that I had to get it off of my chest. So please pray for that situation.
Well I am off to get a skinny vanilla latte at Starbucks!

1 comment:

Tiny said...

Hey Ali. I feel bad that you've been going through all this and that I saw you on Saturday and didn't even know. I feel like I missed an opportunity to be there for someone that could've used a listening ear. I'm sorry for not noticing that you were feeling blue. I'll definitely keep all that stuff regarding your dad in my prayers. And I'm a phone call away if you need me, okay? As to your eating, congrats for staying on track. I'm glad the flexibility of the plan is helping you to succeed with more ease. Keep up the great work!