Wednesday, September 9, 2009

I have been very frusterated the last few weeks with school. I was upset that it was going to take me two years to finish. Funny thing is I kept praying about if teaching is what I am supposed to be doing and feeling frusterated because I felt like I wasn't getting any answers. I had a heart to heart with Shawn last night and he was laughing at me. He explained that he was a little upset at first because of the extra expense but how now he is ok with it all. He explained that I just wasn't seeing what God was trying to show me. Here I am trying to figure out my future when God is saying "Ali I have given you everything you have asked for. You get to go to school while being a Mom. You don't have to put PJ in daycare fulltime because you won't be working full time until he is in 1st grade". I was upset about not passing part of my cset and said well maybe God doesn't want me to teach and this is a sign. Now I know that is was because if I had passed none of his plans would have worked out. Funny how once it is put into perspecive for you, you begin to see how obvious it is that he was listenening all along, even before you were talking to him about it.
I still feel that there is a bigger picture for Shawn and I and I would love to see where he is going to take us. I am looking at our home Bible study as a springboard for much bigger things he has in store.
I know that I am not ready to hear God's audible voice, that would really freak me out. I am however really going to work on not seeing things as coincidence. Everything will fall into place.
"Trust in the LORD with all your heart, And lean not on your own understanding; In all your ways acknowledge Him, And He shall direct your paths." (Proverbs 3:5-6)
So true, Have a great day,
Ali

1 comment:

Tiny said...

Love to hear God at work in the lives of others...thanks for sharing Ali. And I'm so glad that you'll get to spend some more quality time with PJ. :O) BTW, have you picked out a curriculum yet for your bible study? If not, I'd highly recommend the Experiencing God series. You watch a (VHS/DVD) taped message each week with your group and then there are daily questions you go through on your own in a companion workbook. Just purchasing and reading the book with the same title is good too but it's nothing like the meat you get from the study series itself. We did it several years ago with the Dichosa's and all agree that it's a life changing, total spiritual growth kind of study. Anyhow, just food for thought. Take care sis! :)